Varuna
blaspheme
he/him, pls be normal <3
censor names juseyo
i hope you see the comment that i made on your last post :3<
i saw i just don;t have the brainspace to reply yet so
hi so sorry i just needed to say this somewhere but holy shit it’s crazy how so much of rpstwt genuinely see the boys as fictional characters rather than real life human beings, whether they realise it or not. because why are people pitting real life relationships against each other like fucking edward vs jacob??? why is top/bottom discourse a thing??? the boys aren’t singular dimensional characters with traits that are reduced to ‘taking it up the ass’, they’re human beings with complex personalities like literally everyone else. i get it, free will, you’re allowed to do what you want, but i genuinely think some people need to ask themselves if they’ve toed across the line that separates participating in fandom culture and straight up objectifying them for their own personal satisfaction. anyways that’s it i hope you have a great day
hi! thank you for the lovely words! i do want to start by i guess cautioning against trying to neatly define Some shipping behaviour as objectifying and Other shipping behaviour as okay. because rps is like, innately reductive and objectifying. i call it playing barbies for a reason. no matter how much i put mttw in my salad spinner, and no matter how many tweets i include in a thread where i ramble about The Thesis, the fact remains that even by having a thesis i am flattening his personhood into that of a character. and i don't think this is morally incorrect or wrong, because this is how being a fan works. we will never interact with three-dimensional and fully realized people, we engage with a projected image of an idol. this is why im so uninterested with what's "canon" or the narrative or whatever. anyways, that's my little soapbox, i just want to be like. rps is rps, and there's no Good vs Bad rps. just Tolerable vs Annoying rps jfjfhdksla
i strongly agree with what you're saying though about how annoying it is for the guys to be treated like fictional characters though. the appeal of rps is that the source material has infinite permutations of interpretation and none of them can be disproven as "wrong" bc it's not like the creator can just tell you so. unfortunately, this leads to interpretations that are tropey, poorly characterized, borderline homophobic and sometimes what i'd go as far as to call exploitative? yeah, idk. but again, the attitude about there being a "wrong way to do rps" is what leads to innate ship discourse and the insane hate trains that my friends have received.
and i will fully admit to ranting about other people doing rps wrong and other annoying things that i have criticized!!! but i do that on my priv. because it's a point of personal opinion and not something that i want to assert as a Valuable Perspective To Be Considered By The Community. because it isn't. it's a selfish little perspective, which is a lovely thing to have, but people need to consider which perspectives are productive to offer and which ones come across as controlling, annoying, and unnecessary
are you gonna come join us on bluesky 🙏
i have a bluesky but i have no use for it right now bc all my communities are here. if/when more people move en masse, i will as well but yeah.
https://x.com/blasphe_eme/status/1857190833230876859?s=46&t=SGATk80ycueMoNTUMchAxQ
st4t ? is that straight t4t or is the s something else? /gen
yeah it's straight t4t
I think you're super cool and right about this discourse and anybody who has issues with you, as a person in your 20s who knows how much less time you have as an adult, saying people our age who DEFINITELY have better stuff to do shouldn't be shitting themselves over people not fucking with a ship/topbottom preference... I think those people are genuinely brainrotted because the fandom absolutely is at a spot where people have to talk about what's happening because it's gotten BAD. People need to be shamed for this behavior. I love you have a good day mashu creampies forever
OKAY FIRST OF ALL THANK YOU FOR THE ART. but yeah thank you for sending this after the last ask i answered bc likejkfhdhfgsk i know im not unreasonable for saying the things im saying but it's nice when other people agree. mashu creampies forever <3
you keep talking about how people over 19 have better things to do than engage in discourse be mean etc etc but don’t you think this is a two way street? we’re mutuals and you’ve been on my timeline interacting with people and promoting said discourse that i don’t really wanna see so just wondering
hi there. so, i have a good idea of who this is and we are not in fact mutuals but whatever. feel free to unfollow idgaf. but by ship discourse i mean telling people that they're wrong for liking certain ships or top/bottom dynamics. i don't see what im doing as contributing to ship discourse, im mad about the standard of behaviour and the way that fancreators are treated here, and im calling shit out as i see it bc people are too comfortable with being awful for no reason.
and it's not "better things to do". teenagers are cognitively primed to be combative and stubborn. when you're a teen, your brain makes Escalation the first available response. i can't blame teenagers for having strong opinions and being annoying, it's literally my responsibility as an adult to recognize that and walk away from the shit that they're starting. which is why I think adults who engage in rps discourse as I have defined it here are really annoying. bc they're grown.
your characterization of mttw is the best one i’ve seen so far, aromantic with so much love to give. which jebe member do you think would have the hardest time coping with this? me personally; geon & bin and maybe tael
hi there! tysm, i really really love this question!! i think the answer is somewhat complicated (assuming that you mean this in the context of "they confess to mttw and he says that he's aro"):
bin: i will start by admitting that platonic sungseok is my favourite iteration of them and as an aro person, i believe their friendship to be something more beautiful than romance. that being said, i think if bin was rejected on these grounds he'd actually find peace in it. i think bin understands mttw very intimately and gleaning this insight would actually soothe any possible insecurities about not being enough or not being capable of being loved. i also think that Knowing that mttw likes their usual affections would comfort bin bc then he's not overstepping boundaries. i think he'd quietly struggle with his own feelings & try to lose them quicker as to not overstep mttw's boundaries, but i think this rejection would bring them closer.
(in a non-confession context where bin's feelings are always platonic towards mttw, i think he'd be deeply worried abt mttw being lonely or lacking in companionship. and i do thinkt that mttbin have a queerplatonic life bond so. take that as you will)
tael: with tr i always consider queerness & identity & so i think that again, this being a matter of mttw's identity & not tr's personality would soothe some of the sting. but i think he'd be incredibly embarrassed for not knowing before, even tho mttw didn't tell him. u could extend this to tr feeling "tricked" for more angst if you want. i also think that tr would require a much longer period of distance with mttw before returning to being friends as normal in order for him to like... ground himself. any sort of residual romantic affection would be followed up with a train of thought like "you idiot, you know that he doesn't mean it like that, stop being delusional". but all of this hinges on mttw explaining his identity to tr, if he doesn't and he's just vague about "not having feelings" then this is a FAR more violent and nasty fallout for them both.
geon: undoubtedly he'd have the hardest time, especially if we include the "mttw is gw's first love" narrative which i love so much. bc mttw is the first person that gw has ever felt this Strongly before, and the pattern of their interactions is very flirty and even romantic, and gw is smart so he'd see the patterns and assume that mttw likes him back. and geon really tries to be strong in the face of rejection, so he'd act like he's unaffected in front of mttw but he would spiral into self-doubt.
i don't think gw would doubt mttw's identity as being aromantic or even think that mttw could be changed, but simultaneously, gw would think that his feelings were rejected bc there's something wrong with him. these sound contradictory but it's the idea of like, rational understanding vs highly emotional and personal belief. it's a very childish, self-centered reasoning that i can't fully explain.
gw would need so much guidance from other people and so much reassurance before even approaching a point of being okay, and i could see an explosive fall out in the case of him not seeking any of that stuff out.
https://x.com/buoppang/status/1855929697189888507?t=uxKmb3Y3QP53IEZ0UvWYMw&s=19 food for thought? 🥢
i try to form thoughts but i see the tattoo and i black out
https://x.com/blasphe_eme/status/1856158141223973244?s=46&t=SGATk80ycueMoNTUMchAxQ
https://neospring.org/+r/2144966fdb
THIS IS THE FIC I WAS TALKING ABT I WAS WONDERING WHERE THEIR TWT WENT
i actually hate it here so fucking much like
https://neospring.org/+r/1a99bd8231
pats you gently and awkwardly on the shoulder. im glad i was able to. like. Reach and impact u. and that i was able to help however i can <3
im not sure how experienced with piercings you are ? but heres some unsolicited piercing advice! so if your helix is getting worse then you may want to see if getting new jewelry (diff material ie implant grade titanium, diff shape ie stud instead of hoop? not sure which u have but hoops are awful for healing) helps, or if you can maybe call your dr ? the place you were pierced might be helpful too ! mine is mad at me because i tried to downsize when it was apparently not ready </3. ermm travel pillows work well with sleeping bc they keep your ear off the bed, inflammation reducing pain meds might help with swelling/pain, and that helixes are in a part of the ear that gets beat up a lot (glasses, headphones) and that sometimes they take over a year to heal (a very long year 😭) ! i personally really like PiercingWithScott on youtube for info on piercing stuff !
i really hope that you'll be in a better place soon :( rest well and eat well and squeeze thewnini
thank u for ur advice!! it's not swelling or painful, it's just. crusty LMAO i'm using saline to clean it but it's just annoying. but i will Def look into the things you reccomended! i bring tthewnini to work to squeeze so do not worry. he is helping me :]
not sure how to start this so i will just vomit out words in the hope that. they kinda make sense. (i will say that i only read ur jebi ff regularly bc i dont know much abt ur other fandoms besides enha and skz but this applies regardless imo)
everything ive read from you i feel like i can. Feel it. its not necessarily about relating to it (which. i do that too. thats just not what im referring to rn) but just ??? the language you use??? its like. i Feel It in my Bones and my Muscles and my Mouth for some reason?
theres some stuff you read that its like. i enjoyed that. i love that. would read again. and i feel that w ur work but like. with your work its like. Oh My. this work is Alive and Breathing and i feel how warm it is like how u feel warmth from holding someones arm ?-??/ like instead of reading in the pov of 3rd person limited or 3rd person omniscient, i Become the 3rd person.
im also like. so obsessed w ur characterization. i feel like (even w the obvious creative liberties that come w writing rpf) it always just Makes sense. everyone is complicated and multifaceted (wo it being overwhelming) and it feels so realistic like. Yeah. tr is so incapable of being casual. maet. Maet. he loves so much. yea.
i love checking ur page to see stuff u post (ur lowk kinda my source for matthew content 😭im a chronic post liker im sorry im prob in ur notifs So Much. my b) whether its like. drabbles, fandom content, even like political/social stuff bc its always smth to gain/learn from i think !
ur an incredible author and the work you put in is so clear and admirable and i wish you luck with everything you are working towards :)
also i hope your helix is doing better !! mine is basically the bane of my existence atp
i. im sorry this is so. messy but like. i am. admittedly struggling a Lot right now. i have been abruptly thrust into a really dark place mentally & i am struggling to stay afloat. my real life is very lonely. last night was one of the worst nights ive ever had in months. i've felt like a zombie all day, moving through a haze. opening my neospring to see this message felt like coming up for air. it grounded me. it really made me feel human & seen.
thank you so much, anon. i wish i could better articulate how much this means to me, how much i needed to hear something like this today. i often feel intangible in the world. i don't feel like my existence & presence holds much weight. to hear that my words have physicality, that they aren't just read but felt--it lifted a weight off of my chest.
my helix isn't doing better at all, i think it's gotten worse. but i'm so fucking happy that it's being such a pain, because you remembered it. thank you so much anon. i hope yours heals a little better. thank you :')
Hello Varuna of Blaspheme fame! Something I'm curious about these days is how you arrange your wips. You seem to have quite a few, right? I'm curious about how you store them and list them I guess without losing track of them. Have a good day!
hi. uh. i don't really arrange anything? i title things usually with the ship + the main premise that i created the new doc with. like my doc for happy accidents is simply called 'rikgyub breeding kink' even though the fic has gotten way more complicated. i usually only decide on titles when i'm done the entire fic and going to publish it, and i almost always forget to add the title to the doc at that stage. i lose track of wips all the time which is why i frequently search key words/names in that account to see if there's anything else there that's interesting that i've missed. it's not organized, but it's functional. thanks for the question, i hope u also have a good day!!!!
here to say i sincerely love everything you post – you never ever ever miss. from your writing to your ideas to your opinions, i regularly check your page to see what i didn’t see on my feed because i don’t want to miss a single thing. thank you for being so candid and creative. you’re such a fresh voice in this community and i hope you never stop doing what you do as long, as it brings you joy and happiness and fulfillment. 🫶
:') anon this is so sweet tysm. i'll be honest, it's a little intimidating to hear something like this bc i don't think my words are anything special, or necessarily important. i speak bc no one has stopped me yet LMAO but also at the same time it is reassuring to know that what i say is resonating with people. and that there is smth valuable to be found in my ramblings.
i really want to especially thank you for calling me "candid and creative." That really, really means a lot to me. Ily anon I hope you have an amazing day <3
https://x.com/blasphe_eme/status/1855287187488551022?s=46&t=SGATk80ycueMoNTUMchAxQ
i had to report a diff hp gyubrik fic bc its literally completely plagiarized 😭 and whats crazy is the "author" linked the work it was "inspired by" 😭 i didnt find out until i'd read everything currently posted to the fic bc i recced it to someone n they went to check out the og work ig? and realized it was the same :(
https://archiveofourown.org/works/60338344/chapters/153991303
oh my god they turned off comments after a few ppl mentioned it being plagiarized
the good news is that the second fic has been deleted. god. the fucking audacity of people
WE GOT OUR THEWNINIS ON THE SAME DAY (i got gunini too but anywya) COMGRATS UR THEWNINI LOOKS PROPORTIONAL
congrats on ur zeronis!!!! i hope all tthewninis speak to each other. like cell towers
hi friend <33 this is ao3 entertheforest once again thank u for ur words u left me especially while i was on hiatus i was just horribly uninspired and truly did not write for months but seeing how excited and active you were i really felt okay to write again so thank u. currently im not comfortable with being present on twt and only using discord to keep in contact with people. if you would like to be friends on discord lmk bc i would love to talk to you!! we are the same age and i think the name varuna is so pretty
HI THERE. SORRY IM GETTING TO THIS SO LATE. i have discord but i barely ever use it im so sorry </3 i will continue to b ur ardent fan!!
Thoughts on bin x maettael 🤔 just recently starting thinking about them and I’d like to see them both just stare at tael like this ❤️__❤️ and obviously bin with his duckrae agenda
i don't really have any bintael thoughts tbh. like i've considered them but i can't muster anything beyond "The Silles! :D" yknow
naurrrr omg i think the bachelor im doing used to be spss too and i heard ppl that had to retake the subject (idk if thats the correct term soz) were struggling w learning r studio instead as well.. best of luck to u.... i am usually absolute ass at like. Programs (i hate to see excel coming) but rstudio has been pretty easy to understand so far and the layout is wayyy more comprehensible than i was expecting (i mean to say that i relate to seeing the appeal) . but i can definitely see how switching from a diff program makes it turrible
i should make it very clear that im used to spss but im still so bad with it. i have decent stats knowledge but using these fuckass programs is impossible (i have old man brain). but Hwaiting anon, we can do this!!
please i need to see the list of "Capacity For Casual Sex"
here u go anon!
asking out of genuine curiosity why are u learning r studio!! if its too personal u dont have to answer :] just curious bc i have to use it in school (psych)
i'm doing my masters in psych and i used spss for my undergrad but the expectation in my program is to use r which fucking SUCKS. i am getting better at it tho and i do see the appeal
this Is a butch lesbian i will agree
I am curious about more of that pokemon au you were talking about yesterday. How would it progress, you think?
(anon is referring to this thread: https://x.com/blasphe_eme/status/1851364825609257317)
first of all, i think that one of the breaking points for tr would be that for a very long time, he wholeheartedly & earnestly supported mttw's work, and cheered him on. but mttw never properly showed his appreciation for it, he'd say his thanks but he wouldn't do anything for tr bc he simply was so overwhelmed, and tr could only be so understanding for so long.
I think that tr's intial resentment and venom would soften quickly over the span of the first few playdates as he sees that like, mttw is so miserable and tired and it's not getting better. also it's awkward as hell during that time bc tr lashed out on day one and now mttw doesn't try to talk to him & tr has always been able to rely on mttw reaching out first. i think tr's breaking point would be mttw almost falling asleep mid-playdate and then really roughly pinching himself to stay awake, at which point tr would storm over to mttw's side, sit down and force mttw to lie down on his lap and REST. mttw would be too tired to argue and so he would. tr would very cautiously pet mttw's hair to soothe him when he seems upset.
after that, i think tr would message mttw a long text that's like "listen. your work can end our relationship, but it shouldn't end you. your pokemon need you, asshole. take care of yourself for their sake at the very least." and he sends that intending for that to be the end but mttw starts sending tr updates of like. his meals. good night texts to show that he's sleeping. photos of his pokemon to show that he's spending time with them. tr keeps saying that mttw doesn't have to Report to him, but he doesn't stop mttw directly.
tr starts to follow mttw's battling career and sends mttw critiques for every battle, win or lose (tr isn't a pro but he's a good strategist). mttw hits a winning streak shortly after and he keeps thanking tr for the help. tr starts to feel uneasy bc mttw is doing so well now, but tr is still in their town and he's single and lonely and he's so afraid that he's going to slip up and tell mttw "I love you" at any point.
tr hears that there's going to be a big gala where the elite trainers get a plus one. he doesn't think much of it, until mttw asks him to the gala at the next play date. plusle and minun are obviously eavesdropping. tr tries to brush it off, saying that mttw should take someone better than his ex, but mttw takes tr's hand and very plainly states that he doesn't want them to be exes anymore. he never did. he never stopped loving tr, and he really wants to give tr a night that he deserves, at least once. if tr doesn't want to get back together, then that's okay (it's not, and tr can tell), but at least let mttw make it up to him.
tr cautiously agrees and the night of the gala is the most romantic night of his life. mttw shows him off to everyone, proudly states that tr helped contribute to his strategy. im running out of steam but yada yada, post-gala sex, tr and mttw start slowly dating again.
yeah :]
dude i just had an r programming exam like last week…i feel your pain so much, as someone who also had 0 programming experience. it gets better after a while though, i believe in you!!!
thank you man, i found some good tutorials on youtube so im struggling through
what’s ur take on a mttw and rik dynamic (romantic or platonic)? bc sometimes there’s an energy imo that’s like. kissing or not they could be playing nba 2k. guys being dudes, etc
i've always described seokrik as two cats sitting on the same sofa. they have an inherent level of ease due to sharing a language, and also they are both chill in general. they both can play up/heighten the dramatics for comedy, especially mttw, but their baseline is so easygoing. mttw tends to mirror the energy of whoever he's interacting with so with rik, he gets to just kind of hang back. that's why most of their interactions are just casual english conversations. it's also why it's so fucking funny when rik gets riled up bc mttw doubles down.
i think that they kiss btwn rounds of nba 2k. in terms of like, Capacity For Casual Sex, rik is on the higher end of that list (and i do have a list). mttw is, of course, mttw, and he loves any and all intimacy. so if rik one day just leans in mid convo to gently peck mttw's lips, a non-committal thing that he can't really explain, mttw definitely would just beam and smack a kiss on rik right back.
in essence: platonic sex. my seokrik bible.
can i ask how you made your mashed tthew banner? it's so perfect
this is so dumb but:
- i got the text gif from textstudio
- i made the background graphic by editing elements together in pixlr
- i used ezgif to resize everything to the way i wanted it and also use the graphic as the background for the gif
there is 100% an easier way to do this if you have the right programs, but i don't, so i just spent like. 4 hours on this.