anonymous
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not sure how to start this so i will just vomit out words in the hope that. they kinda make sense. (i will say that i only read ur jebi ff regularly bc i dont know much abt ur other fandoms besides enha and skz but this applies regardless imo)
everything ive read from you i feel like i can. Feel it. its not necessarily about relating to it (which. i do that too. thats just not what im referring to rn) but just ??? the language you use??? its like. i Feel It in my Bones and my Muscles and my Mouth for some reason?
theres some stuff you read that its like. i enjoyed that. i love that. would read again. and i feel that w ur work but like. with your work its like. Oh My. this work is Alive and Breathing and i feel how warm it is like how u feel warmth from holding someones arm ?-??/ like instead of reading in the pov of 3rd person limited or 3rd person omniscient, i Become the 3rd person.
im also like. so obsessed w ur characterization. i feel like (even w the obvious creative liberties that come w writing rpf) it always just Makes sense. everyone is complicated and multifaceted (wo it being overwhelming) and it feels so realistic like. Yeah. tr is so incapable of being casual. maet. Maet. he loves so much. yea.
i love checking ur page to see stuff u post (ur lowk kinda my source for matthew content ðŸ˜im a chronic post liker im sorry im prob in ur notifs So Much. my b) whether its like. drabbles, fandom content, even like political/social stuff bc its always smth to gain/learn from i think !
ur an incredible author and the work you put in is so clear and admirable and i wish you luck with everything you are working towards :)
also i hope your helix is doing better !! mine is basically the bane of my existence atp
i. im sorry this is so. messy but like. i am. admittedly struggling a Lot right now. i have been abruptly thrust into a really dark place mentally & i am struggling to stay afloat. my real life is very lonely. last night was one of the worst nights ive ever had in months. i've felt like a zombie all day, moving through a haze. opening my neospring to see this message felt like coming up for air. it grounded me. it really made me feel human & seen.
thank you so much, anon. i wish i could better articulate how much this means to me, how much i needed to hear something like this today. i often feel intangible in the world. i don't feel like my existence & presence holds much weight. to hear that my words have physicality, that they aren't just read but felt--it lifted a weight off of my chest.
my helix isn't doing better at all, i think it's gotten worse. but i'm so fucking happy that it's being such a pain, because you remembered it. thank you so much anon. i hope yours heals a little better. thank you :')