Yes, Juliette was depressed before her trauma (meaning the incident where her ex-boyfriend made her a victim of revenge porn at age 15 that resulted in her suicide attempt). Juliette had incredibly neglectful parents so never had anyone looking out for her mental health, or her anything really. The lack of care from her parents and the unstable, toxic environment they were raising her in led to her being depressed at a very young age.

Her suicidal ideation started in middle school as more passive suicidal thoughts. Things like, ‘I just want to sleep forever,’ or ‘it’d be easier if I weren’t here.’ As middle school progressed passive turned to active and at the end of eight grade Juliette was struggling with regular thoughts of, ‘I want to be dead.’

The summer before she started freshman year she was fifteen and she met the guy who would become her boyfriend, Mason who was nineteen at the time. This was a reprieve from her depression and suicidal thoughts. For the first time Juliette felt like she had something to live for, at least until they broke up. The break up hit her very hard and then when Mason posted sexually explicit photos and videos of her Juliette began experiencing bullying to a severe degree. This lead to constant, loud thoughts of, ‘I want to kill myself.’ So, on her sixteenth birthday she walked to a bridge to attempt.