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hey just wanted to say that CWN is considered good looking is a traditional and conventional sense, extremely so, canonically. He just canât see it himself. The low self esteem is most likely due to several things but in this case I think itâs both a mix between him never having experienced real paternal love(his shizun wasnât exactly the affectionate type)/any real familial love, which makes it hard for him to mirror him in anyone and therefore canât see his own good qualities in others. his good qualities are isolated and hard to grasp for him, essentially. and in relation to mo ran, the looks insecurity stems from his belief that mo ran has a preference for the very girly form, even in men, whereas taken from description from others, CWN is a very good mix of both the pretty and handsome, a truly beautiful individual. he looks âimmortalâ to others, for how untouchable he looks. but to him he canât see this beauty, to him, the more handsome feature he also has alongside the pretty ones stand out too starkly and make him look harsh, essentially blinding him negatively. this isnât a lecture! u just didnât sound that sure if that makes sense https://x.com/crynicism/status/1848162490678669495?s=46&t=EOWQNHyVF7b36PZh0kCD-g
Thank you very much tbh I kinda get it because I didn't put the right sentences correctly and was not very good with my wordings (plus it was fueled with anger) but what I meant is he's more likely see the standard in mingjing and others and didn't see himself fits in that standard.