hey just wanted to say that CWN is considered good looking is a traditional and conventional sense, extremely so, canonically. He just can’t see it himself. The low self esteem is most likely due to several things but in this case I think it’s both a mix between him never having experienced real paternal love(his shizun wasn’t exactly the affectionate type)/any real familial love, which makes it hard for him to mirror him in anyone and therefore can’t see his own good qualities in others. his good qualities are isolated and hard to grasp for him, essentially. and in relation to mo ran, the looks insecurity stems from his belief that mo ran has a preference for the very girly form, even in men, whereas taken from description from others, CWN is a very good mix of both the pretty and handsome, a truly beautiful individual. he looks “immortal” to others, for how untouchable he looks. but to him he can’t see this beauty, to him, the more handsome feature he also has alongside the pretty ones stand out too starkly and make him look harsh, essentially blinding him negatively. this isn’t a lecture! u just didn’t sound that sure if that makes sense https://x.com/crynicism/status/1848162490678669495?s=46&t=EOWQNHyVF7b36PZh0kCD-g