i think that there is so much affection evident in the music - not just lyrically and conceptually, but in how it's crafted and delivered. vernon's affection for minghao and minghao's anticipatory love language and indulgences (in ways we don't see with many other members - maybe woozi, musically at least, and seungkwan?) i think only rivals the kind of quiet affection we see between wonwoo and seungcheol (i can think of a couple other pairings but i think it's that same level of playful indulgence where the dongsaeng gets to really BE the dongsaeng, you know?)

anyway i like them and i need to loop stardust and 54321 liftoff and Think A Lot

i'm trying to see anything here that isn't how small and closed off csc is and feels especially compared to every other member. this is around jp debut i think? thanks era? and he just looks so tired and stressed. he mentions that he must have been stressed writing his letter, but god. i think that whatever he's done since his hiatus saved him, because i think that this small baby would've cracked under the weight of who he thought he needed to be (and did.)

having that perspective, it's also interesting to think about how this jeonghan hasn't yet started learning japanese, therefore taking on more leadership responsibilities. i think that they shoulder the weight of being the eldest members feels most evident here (joshua in a very different way, to me) but it's imbalanced and it makes me wonder like. how much of their current closeness had to be pried from perdition to become who they are to each other.

but yeah i think that the acknowledgment that this could be the end so let's work hard is a recurring theme but there's also the reassurance that has come with time, where jeonghan reminds seungcheol that no matter what happens, they'll still have reach other. gay people.