i'm trying to see anything here that isn't how small and closed off csc is and feels especially compared to every other member. this is around jp debut i think? thanks era? and he just looks so tired and stressed. he mentions that he must have been stressed writing his letter, but god. i think that whatever he's done since his hiatus saved him, because i think that this small baby would've cracked under the weight of who he thought he needed to be (and did.)

having that perspective, it's also interesting to think about how this jeonghan hasn't yet started learning japanese, therefore taking on more leadership responsibilities. i think that they shoulder the weight of being the eldest members feels most evident here (joshua in a very different way, to me) but it's imbalanced and it makes me wonder like. how much of their current closeness had to be pried from perdition to become who they are to each other.

but yeah i think that the acknowledgment that this could be the end so let's work hard is a recurring theme but there's also the reassurance that has come with time, where jeonghan reminds seungcheol that no matter what happens, they'll still have reach other. gay people.