thank you so much 🫂 just for you i posted an excerpt of the next chapter 🤧

i'm not sure! i'm proud of all of them for different reasons, but i think the answer is always a toss-up between takedown and hgif. i think takedown is the best thing i've written so far, and it's had by far the biggest impact on my experience in the fandom and my approach to writing out of any of my fics. and then i'm proud of hgif because i experiment a lot more with the way i construct sentences and convey emotions in it, and i've done a lot of digging into point of view. i don't think that the difference in my prose in that fic is actually noticeable to most people (though i have had a couple of people comment on it!), but it's very apparent to me, especially when i'm writing it. it feels really different to write. i've said this before, but with hgif i'm kind of trying to get to the moment before the story.

like, when we have experiences in our lives, after we have them we kind of interpret the experience and our emotions and we fit them into the stories of our lives, right? we tell ourselves a narrative about what happened and what it meant. it puts some distance between us and what the actual visceral raw experience was like. and in general when i'm writing fic, i'm writing with that bit of distance, where the pov character is packaging and interpreting their experiences in real time. they've decided what they're feeling and they can tell themselves about it. but with hgif, i'm trying to depict the moment before that, when we're in the moment and acting on instinct and feeling things as they come to us. no narrative, no understanding, just experience. it makes it harder to write, and i think it's a harder fic for people to connect with, maybe because of that lack of clarity, but i'm always proud of myself for trying that, and i think sometimes i succeed.