(careful clicking the link everyone, it's actual porn, though not too graphic!) oh absoLUTELY!! i shared it with beebalm ✨ maybe unfastening jk brings nj onto one of his streams one day~

thank you so much 🫂 just for you i posted an excerpt of the next chapter 🤧

i knowww why'd i have him dye it 😭 at the time i was bored of writing him blonde but now i'm like ‼️‼️hello⁉️ and thank you for the kind words about the chapter 🙏 it means a lot!

that's an interesting question! i don't think writing with others changes my style much, either within that fic or in stuff i write by myself. but i do think it necessarily changes the way i approach a scene in the fics that i co-write! because i'm constantly handing the scene off to another person and having to build off what they've written, i think i don't form a lot of expectations beforehand, and i'm less picky about the final result. because i don't have to be the one navigating every shift of emotions, i don't have the same kind of control over the pacing or ability to second-guess myself that i do in my solo stuff, so i definitely tend to work faster and more fluidly when i'm writing with a partner. it's easier for me to let things go and keep writing past them, because i know my partner is relying on me to keep the story moving, whereas in my solo stuff i definitely have a tendency to get vaguely dissatisfied with things and then find that i can't move past it 😖

p.s. thank you re: the new unfastening chapter! we were so excited to post it, and i've been really pleased with the response 🥰 we're working on the next chapter right now, and there are some sope updates 👀 it mostly happens in the background, ofc, but we'll continue to give you some glimpses into what's going on with them! there'll be more taehyung and jimin in the next chapter too!!

oh my god it's so unfastening nj ~~~ 🫣 a diligent researcher 🫡

not as such, but i have been thinking about takedown again! i was thinking about blonde jk because jin's recent concept photos meant there was a photo collage on my tl of all the members blonde, and blonde jk just activates something in me!! so i was actually thinking that i was sad that i made him dye his hair black again in takedown bc now i don't have an outlet for the blonde boy 😭😭 i've been going through my ao3 inbox and responding to old comments though, and re-reading everyone's comments on chapter 14 has been so nice 🥲 and last night i reread chapter 14 too, probably for the first time since i posted it! (my verdict is that i see some sections that i think could've been smoother, but overall i'm pretty satisfied with the emotions etc.) and i've been thinking about what the shape of the next chapter might look like. so things are at least moving again in my head. we'll see if it comes to anything! re:

i'm not sure! i'm proud of all of them for different reasons, but i think the answer is always a toss-up between takedown and hgif. i think takedown is the best thing i've written so far, and it's had by far the biggest impact on my experience in the fandom and my approach to writing out of any of my fics. and then i'm proud of hgif because i experiment a lot more with the way i construct sentences and convey emotions in it, and i've done a lot of digging into point of view. i don't think that the difference in my prose in that fic is actually noticeable to most people (though i have had a couple of people comment on it!), but it's very apparent to me, especially when i'm writing it. it feels really different to write. i've said this before, but with hgif i'm kind of trying to get to the moment before the story.

like, when we have experiences in our lives, after we have them we kind of interpret the experience and our emotions and we fit them into the stories of our lives, right? we tell ourselves a narrative about what happened and what it meant. it puts some distance between us and what the actual visceral raw experience was like. and in general when i'm writing fic, i'm writing with that bit of distance, where the pov character is packaging and interpreting their experiences in real time. they've decided what they're feeling and they can tell themselves about it. but with hgif, i'm trying to depict the moment before that, when we're in the moment and acting on instinct and feeling things as they come to us. no narrative, no understanding, just experience. it makes it harder to write, and i think it's a harder fic for people to connect with, maybe because of that lack of clarity, but i'm always proud of myself for trying that, and i think sometimes i succeed.

you're SO on the right track with that jk image! this video was totally what we had in mind when we were writing that abrupt energy shift before nj opens the door in that chapter, and the clip you mentioned fits so well with just before that, when he's leaning against his bike texting 🥵. it's so cool to see him flip that switch into performance mode! the focus! (attention is sexy!) i've honestly never thought about jungkook thinking that namjoon might be play-acting as gloss during their sessions and not being quite genuine, and i think that's a super interesting interpretation. it's definitely more present in nj's pov in the earlier part of the fic, like during their first real scene together he's thinking of his book character and how he's supposed to feel and stuff like that, so i can see where you got it from!

i shared this message with beebalm, bc i wanted to get her perspective on it and see what her interpretation is too. and she said she thinks jk is aware that nj's reactions to him in the moment are genuine, but there definitely is that sort of role disconnect you were talking about in that nj's a client. like jungkook's used to his clients wanting him physically and even romantically, but just because they want him during the time when they're paying him doesn't mean that desire is gonna extend outside of the service he's providing. she said "someone being genuinely into him still doesn’t override the fact that he’s a prostitute and it’s a business transaction and he’s not like… someone they’d introduce to their mother with no shame." 🥲 y'know, that saying about how people don't pay prostitutes for sex, they pay them to leave afterward.

so i do think jungkook has his own reservations/doubts about nj's feelings because he knows that he's a fantasy for most people, and that most people also want him to stay that way. it's escapism! up to this point, all of his interactions with namjoon have been so centered around this transactional relationship, he doesn't have anything outside of that to compare it to. which is why i'm so excited about the snow storm sleepover in the next chapter, because it's the first time either of them are gonna have an extended interaction where jungkook's not on the clock. they have to just be people!! what's that gonna be like?! always a pleasure to talk to you 🥰