Couldn't relate more to this, but I feel like we are in a diferent situation so it's better I'd dont give too much info of myself. All I can recomend is that this will eventually pass, just like everything in life does. Believe me, you will start expressing yourself or what you think eventually, no one can handle pretending for too long. It doesn't really matter for many people, in the end every only care about they're ass so what are you waiting? Go on, tell your opinion! Piss everyone off! If they can't handle listening to your opinion, are you sure you know them or are you talking to a bunch of ignorants hm? If they can't handle a opinion or a way of acting that aren't they're own liking, then I'm sorry but you're talking to a ignorant person. It doesn't matter if they're super intelligent or not, ignorance comes from the neglect of a diferent perspective, it is not accepting your opinion is the only one that exists. All I can tell you at the moment is that it's ok for you to feel the way you do, and the best is to move on and not let your crown fall. Look up, there are more then millions of people on earth, not only myself but a lot of people are probably interested in how you actually are and your opinions. Go crazy kid!