Hello hello! :DD tbh I would love to yap more about different doruan pairings too (ㅅ´ ˘ `)

in fact i'm pretty sure i used to talk about anzu ships more openly (headcanons, aus, fic summaries etc.), but i guess as my account grew in follower numbers I felt too intimidated since so many people would pay attention to what I say (⸝⸝⸝╺﹏╺⸝⸝⸝) i've been told by a bunch of people to just make a priv already but i never did lol tbh i hope i can find it in me to yap more about doruan, i really like it and i'm tired feeling pushed into a corner by watchful eyes and doruan deniers/erasers, and i do gotta be the change i want to see in the world if i want something to change :DD

i kinda tried to express my anzu-related ideas through my art now, which dooms me even more because not only do i not draw doruan but i also draw anzu like once a month (although i do have plenty of wips that never see the light of day) OTL plus I do have a lot of doruan related rambles on my saved tweets like tier lists, gushing about a bunch of scenes, and different au ideas so hopefully i can get around to actually posting them here or on bsky.

somewhat related side tangent, but i think a lot of it has something to do with the changes in my perspective over the years as someone who liked anzu for this long. i remember a certain tweet that really stuck out to me, which was about how someone was annoyed that there was a lot of doruan content by fans, but not as much of anzu herself. when i saw it i disagreed in my mind of course, but ever since then i wanted to focus more on anzu herself rather than anzu with the idols, if that makes sense? i know that's really silly since enjoying anzu's pairings means being able to celebrate those dynamics she has with the cast, but i guess internally it's my way of paying attention to anzu first and foremost. i guess that's why the ship related rambles are few and far between besides from story reactions, which is ironic considering that lifting up anzu's unique relationship with the idols is what i should be doing in order to spread that love to others ૮(˶ㅠ︿ㅠ)ა i could be doing a lot more to help people realize why a lot of doruan pairings are so good to begin with, which is definitely a shortcoming of mine

let me just say that my thoughts always circle around trick5tar, ibaanzu, madaanzu, kaoanzu, suzuanzu, negianzu, and hinaanzu so everyone better thank me for being a coward or i would be the most annoying anzu liker on the planet the enstarries would hate me

thank you for the request and for liking my enstars posts (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) i'll do my best to yap more about doruan publicly!!