at first, i was thinking about writing a second chapter to show dawon’s side of things, but maybe some things are better left unsaid. dawon herself has to grapple with her own struggles and regrets, because she is the one who chose to leave after all (even if it was “the only choice to make”) and watching hyunjung achieve everything they wanted to without her is going to hurt. whether or not dawon actually showed up for the earlier performances but khj didn’t see her is up to interpretation, but i would think that she didn’t - it hurt too much at that point. did dawon actually sit at the seat khj reserved for her but left early? also up to interpretation, i don’t have an answer for that. i think even attending the concert would’ve been a difficult decision to make and accepting khj’s ticket means accepting certain social obligations. i don’t know if she can look at khj shine on stage from that close distance either. but, mainly i wanted to have the idea of the back row (which was originally in the fic title) from this lyric: well the years pass but the time slows and i still look for you in the back row, oh i wish i could see you now.

[this post is how i found out that neospring doesn’t actually let you send answers close to but not exceeding the 4096 character limit because it was about 10 characters under originally but they forced me to split it up]