ur last post is relatable but i'd like to give advice! building relationships happens very gradually and making friends takes time too. however any form of interaction or communication is very important. don't be afraid of reaching out first! also don't force anything. if someone isn't vibing with u then don't vibe with them. another thing is even if friendships or friend groups fail it's okay! not everything works out and if it doesn't then that means it wasn't supposed to. more importantly past relationships are sort of meant to help u learn and grow. everyone is having the same human experience so don't be afraid! i hope this helps, even only a little. addio!