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What would you say is Camila's biggest flaw that she's self aware about, as opposed to things she doesn't realize about herself?

The worst flaw Camila is most aware of is her paranoia and thirst for answers. It stares her in the face when she looks at the wall of her room that is almost entirely taken up by a Pepe Silvia esque clue board. She has also landed in some deep shit in the name of satiating her curiosity. This weakness is routinely used against her by enemies and works almost every time.

Her truest flaws, and the ones she doesn't really acknowledge, are her tendency to overwork herself, and her almost deification of pain.

She's used to being told to sit the hell down and let someone else take care of it, but she gets Itchy when she's not doing work. She will always get shit done, so why would she stop working and leave it up to someone else who she isn't sure will be able to take care of it like she can?

Her relationship with pain is also all kinds of fucked up in ways that she completely refuses to acknowledge. First, she trades pain for love in relationships--seeing her endurance of pain that someone might want to give her as an expression of love. This ties into her relationship with pain as it pertains to ballet, because the more she hurt for her art, the more sure in her devotion she felt. To her, enduring pain is love, it is devotion, and it is a show of both mental and physical strength. Which is why the chronic pain she sustains as a result of Henry/Khalid's sabotage makes her hold onto that memory of the love she felt for him forever. When she has a bad leg day, she always thinks of the good times with him.

#Camila #CityOfMist
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