hahdhwbd… aww. alright. homosexuality ramble coming right up.

So I've been revisiting some of the Aleixandre-Prieto correspondence lately because now that i’ve reached 100 poems in /lorca (yay!) I want to focus more on translating correspondence. There isn't as much on Lorca and Dalí, so I've basically been scrolling through Prieto’s archive neverendingly. and my God! What a man Aleixandre was… What baffles me most perhaps is that he is so. insistent.

always, whenever Prieto is busy, or traveling, or his letters don't arrive on time — Aleixandre will send another letter and whine, and tell him “how long has it been since we've last spoken? Months, perhaps… No, this can't be, dear Gregorio!” (literal thing he wrote, just a bit paraphrased). It seems to me that he is constantly trying to get Prieto's attention, pawing at him somehow. He sends him postcards if he's visiting somewhere else, complains about Prieto and him not being able to travel together to Sevilla (his hometown), and it's always “Gregorio, Gregorio, Gregorio!” God DAMN!

I point this out not because it's surprising that Aleixandre is so homosexual (lol lmao are you kidding me) but because this constant pawing-at is so different to what Lorca did (or tried to do). Don't get me wrong — Lorca, my poor man — he was as clingy as Aleixandre sometimes. But Lorca tried to seduce Dalí. He purposefully complimented him and threw innuendos at him, but everything was calculated; he was intently flirting. Aleixandre, on the other hand — it just seems like he wrote whatever came to mind. He's not trying to flirt, he genuinely just wants Prieto that much. He tells Prieto that he needs him, that he misses him, that he's upset they can't talk more regularly, without the need to censor any of his feelings or trying to be overly charismatic. He's not scared of coming off as needy, he just calls for Prieto whenever he wants. Perhaps the difference between the two is that Prieto actually came when Aleixandre called for him, unlike Dalí with Lorca… My poor boy. TT