OMG YOU'RE RIGHT he would be disgusted that Mo Ran is attracted to his Xia Sini body but I also don't think he knows it's wrong entirely tbh? I really think Mo Ran could groom him into believing it's fine 😭

Anyways consider this. Some other elder rapes Xia Sini and he's too afraid and confused to tell anyone but he does get more nervous and jumpy around Mo Ran. And then when Mo Ran goes to kiss him like usual, he starts to cry without meaning to and begs him not to hurt him (too) 😭 1/2