well, easily, i wanted to write it because i have a vomit fetish and i like exploring characters motivations to do things they feel like they shouldn't be doing. and im interested in aspect of dubcon re: vomit where vomit is seen as a nasty thing and pushing thru it bc youre that obsessed with getting the nut you think you deserve etc. i also tend to write puke fic in a way that it isnt intentional and somewhat innocent in the way both people just really like each other and care about each other. and i wanted to try something different where it was more sinister with a power imbalance and sick psychosexuality. but the interaction between musicians robert smith and billy corgan at an even where smith pukes in corgans shoes after trying to kiss him was the "real" inspiration. i was like yeah i could work with this - but how? then i decided writing a celebrity au would be best. inspired by celebrity life and the way people change because of it, the masks they may wear because of it, the bad things they do. it makes for a juicy situation i think. messy lives of celebrities and all the things they do and try to get away with as inspo i guess. to fuel the psychosexual and selfish motivations i wanted to explore.

i usually have a hard time setting things like this in "canon" because i always think "HE WOULD NEVER DO THAT" lmao 😭