yk what, i'm dont want to recover. i'm not READY to recover. my relationship with wriothesley is very much real and has kept me here. i love wriothesley, even on the darkest days he's managed to keep me stable. yeah, i feel physically sick when i see his ships or people like him. i'm aware its unhealthy and i'm aware being so dependant on a fictional character wont help me better myself but he's literally the only thing i have right now.