⠀࿙࿚⠀. aunt is @aunt -⑅- stepmother is @horse ! .ᐟ⠀

⠀࿙࿚⠀Hallo bestie. ([亞]‿^ )♡

⠀࿙࿚⠀thanks. ♡

⠀࿙࿚⠀yah ♡ that url is still under the family’s possession. it belongs to my middle-⑅-sister࣭ ࣭ ࣪ ͡ ︶

⠀࿙࿚⠀sorry dear.. i’ve only seen this now. happy late birthday to us! .ᐟ #Twinning⠀hope you ate lots of cake and had a wonderful day~⑅

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⠀࿙࿚⠀cute fact: i often think i don’t even have aspd and that my personality is just like that.. then i remember i was forced into specialized treatment for an entire year LOL. these were a few symptoms I’ve presented which my psychiatrist mentioned applying to the criteria.., ! .ᐟ⠀ keep in mind my hpd symptoms do overlap with my aspd ones ᐡ╥ᆺ╥ᐡ

a gentle note; prioritize getting a professional diagnosis if you have the means to. we are very prone to read symptoms and then suddenly find ourselves relating to them or believing we must have that disorder. the brain is influenceable！

• ദິ~ irritability and inability to control anger at times;
• ദິ~ naturally exploitative and manipulative behavior;
• ദິ~ basing my actions without any further consideration about how people may feel or in regards to the impact it’ll cause them;
• ദິ~ difficulty sustaining long-term relationships;
• ദິ~ lack of remorse or rationalizing when my actions affect others negatively;
• ദິ~ problems with the law;
• ദິ~ impulsivity and lack of self-preservation… doing dangerous things for the thrill of it and without regard for the safety of myself or of others;
• ദິ~ failure to plan ahead;
• ദິ~ tendency to lie compulsively;
• ദິ~ using others for personal gain.

good luck with your research~~

⠀࿙࿚⠀child disciplined? .ᐣ.. I was DEVOURED.

⠀࿙࿚⠀sounds like a you problem tbh.. ⠀but excusing my cuntiness because I’m in a bad mood right now and wanted to retaliate with the first person who sounded mean (and Reihda just scolded me). i’m trying to centralize it better to make it more accessible (looks fine to me on computer but shitty on mobile so you have a point babygirl.. sorry everyone i did not realize)

⠀࿙࿚⠀don’t think i should have any word on how someone copes, but if you want to hear the personal experience from a damsel who’s been there, done that~⑅> i really advice you not to.

⠀my family and I aestheticized it as a means for “comfort” and to “feel in control” a while back, and while it did feel empowering for a while, the mental deterioration it caused on the long run was much worse. ତ(⑅/❀/ ̫ T) by doing so, you’re just engaging with a toxic mindset, normalizing a horrifying form of abuse, and passing down the brainwashed mentality into those around you. it’s like romanticizing your own trauma and remaining in the same place because it feels familiar.

⠀࿙࿚⠀sure~⑅⠀hHi cutie ତ(⑅⁠*ꈍ ̫ ꈍ)

⠀࿙࿚⠀yeah. ♡︎ can’t say it’s solely due to my disorder because you can’t simply use a card to justify all your morality flaws and deny responsibility, now can you~⑅? .ᐣ⠀ིྀ I do experience being characterized as two-⑅-faced and manipulative, sometimes even to a funny degree as if everything I did had some evil scheming behind and the intention to affect others… I will not deny I haven’t done such things before, I’m petty when I feel crossed and impulsively feel the need to “drag the bitch down” once the berserk button is unlocked. but honestly i’m not some mastermind in the slightest… 😭 if I want to hurt someone;; I don’t construct a plan, I just act based on my anger at the moment.

I do lack empathy, deal with chronic boredom which makes me do some crazy shit！！！ sometimes, and struggle with basing my actions solely on how I feel without further thought on how they’ll affect others… so it’s not as if everything was ill-⑅-intended. I’m alienated enough to believe what I’m doing is normal or has a decent purpose, until I’m called out on my bs or realize it affected those around me.

no hard feelings to who sees me as a cunt because I’ve been one many times. someone once said getting too close to me inevitably leads you into being hurt or dragged into trouble, and I do agree… it’s in my nature to bite the hand which feeds me for no reason at all. i have the urge to lash at people, i unconsciously behave in a patronizing and unpredictable way.

anywaaays, it is just annoying as hell when people dwell on the assumption I am after them or trying to get under their skin！i may be egotistical, attention-⑅-seeking, imprudent, whatever blah blah, but i assure you i take enough medication and do enough therapy not to terrorize someone’s life. I don’t engage with drama after like. 3 days. because it’s just momentary adrenaline + not worth sustaining beef. i focus my energy on other endeavors, although slip-⑅-ups of rage or paranoia may occur. 𓎟𓎟𓎟𓎟 cute how people can antagonize others at the expense of ignoring their own sins.

⠀࿙࿚⠀why would I take offense to your words? .ᐣ you didn’t say anything wrong, do not worry. ♡︎ I’m glad you find us interesting, that’s lovely to hear.

⠀࿙࿚⠀mmm… I dunno which I’d reward with the “number 1” spot〜⑅⠀I do like Rozen Maiden, Elfen Lied, Pandora Hearts, Fate.. guess that’s all, really？.ᐣ⠀I’m not really an anime person, sorry sweetheart ପ(ꔫ ̫ ◟͈)ッ ෆ

⠀࿙࿚⠀sure^-^ ~ꗯ depends on what you offer

⠀࿙࿚⠀hiii, baby~⑅⠀ ིྀ a considerate amount were anagrams of Brazilian and English words… we did try our best to not overstep any closed practices, which can still be tricky at times since the same word can overlap with various languages and have varying meanings in certain regions. I’d say you’re safe to go ✿﮾⡴

⠀࿙࿚⠀hHeh, yes. of course. ~⑅ chuu may!.ᐟ⑅ wonder is a character from a webtoon named:; ”die wonder”.. It can be read ꗯ ̮͡here ུ

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⠀࿙࿚⠀comfortable? .ᐣ ⠀yes. sure. oOf course. I would be comfortable and i am comfortable. thankyuu. ତ(⑅ꈍ‿͡⚆༎ຶ) I think it is very nice that you consider dThe extension of human emotio,ns before committing your actions. you earn 5 points. and you earn your answer;;.. they are located here. pPlease have lovely manners and credit that Rentry, as the dividers were made by her^-^ ~⑅

⠀࿙࿚⠀mine can. there is always space. would you like me to adopt you? .ᐣ ⠀i pamper my family every day. we have happy family dinners. at the family dinner table. it is pleasant. your stepfather tells us stories about the five different boxes filled with parallel peanuts. the floorboards are throbbing with wax. he doesn;t even know there is anything above the location, That blood splashes when the gas runs out. he only plays his part. (⁠o⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠o⁠)⠀that is nice. you do not need to play a part. i only require you to be yourself. What exists beneath your shell is lovely. you are a fantastic beautiful thing.

⠀࿙࿚⠀i suppose. yes. through pragmatic terms, that would be correct to assume. Very much so. aren;t you a smart child~⑅? .ᐣ i am many pieces of people. human texture blends in perfectly with warm cotton-⑅-candy flesh. there is much you do not know. i can imitate each one of them, from their shapely forms to their yawns in the medical clinic. for i am still a part of myself & a part of every distorted fragment which my bursting veins proudly absorbed, i do have a voice you could consider truest to myself. ~ദິ unfortunately you are not inside of this brain to experience each howl. I cannot provide you precise, concrete, succulent accuracy samples,;,,;, the closest i can offer you is ~⑅> this.. are you listening? .ᐣ

yet social norms plague this fine piece of existence. i will usually shape it into a more feminine-⑅-normal-⑅-lady-⑅-voice so i do not disturb the rest of the family. these neighbors are quite the critics. (⑅＾.＾⑅)

⠀࿙࿚⠀just lovely! （[亞]_＾）thankies for asking. how are you？？

⠀࿙࿚⠀pPLEaaASE… I’m glad you get it～░͠.ᐟ I do ponder if that’s the answer they expect, too!︕ ⠀it’s really silly cos they’re obviously doing that to start pointless drama or project their frustration by trying to make someone feel bad for things no one gives a fuck once they log off the internet ．．I can snap back or humor such messages at times, but I’m genuinely just an attention-⑅-whore.. Whoopsie ꒰ঌ(𓏼:ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀:⠀.) I’m really glad I can entertain you, though︕⠀ you do seem very peculiar, little bird. In a good way. I hope you have an abhorrently beautiful day. ❀₊̣̇

⠀࿙࿚⠀is that so〜？ fankyoo for correcting me. I’m almost certain my quiet-⑅-half mentioned this once, but we don’t have much contact with the indian side of our family．．꒧(; [亞]▾ ^) therefore, we do make some obvious mistakes sometimes. I genuinely appreciate being informed when it happens, cos reconnecting with our heritage practically by ourselves is difficult⠀&͙⠀makes me frustrated sometimes.

⠀࿙࿚⠀yes. you may. that would be lovely indeed. i have many children;, bBut in the center of my ribcage there is always room for more. this household is safe. maternity changed my skin in ways humanity would never comprehend. -⑅- welcome home, my child~⑅! .ᐟ momma loves you. yes.. she that is i do.

⠀࿙࿚⠀hHaha~~⑅֯* ତ(o´ ꒳ `) these arbitrary interrogations are very fun. as fun as seeing your reflection in the mirror. I sometimes wonder if that is truly you or what the kitchen utensils wish for YOU to see.., everyone lies. I could offer you as many words as there are to tell you who I am, but eEverything alludes to perception. just as that dog you see across the street may look white at 1st glance;, but then you stalk closer & realize it has tiny brown dot markings. i think of myself as many things ~⑅ • now it;s your choice to determine what i am & what i should be. you pluck the petals off until there is the core pollen. i shall mold into whatever it is that comforts you at night before the ceiling tires begin to fall. -⑅- I really like pigs and horses though.

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⠀࿙࿚⠀do you have me or do i have you~⑅? .ᐣ⠀who am i~⑅? .ᐣ⠀i am myself & everybody else & Everything! .ᐟ⠀and who would such lovely you be? .ᐣ⠀you have my attention.