yes i would say that - he doesnt allow himself to do anything with men; he only sleeps with women, which he isnt attracted to bc i fully wrote him as a gay man. he has done things with men, but mostly hand and mouth stuff, and he doesnt initiate. and none of it was ever very much. jisung is not deprived whatsoever - hes beautiful and famous and out of the closet and gets whatever he wants. which is why he acts the way he does when he meets chan in person for the first time! jisung thinks he can get anything - bc he's spoiled and money and fame have made him that way. dont think hes a bad person at all but i did write him, or see him ig, as extremely disconnected from certain facets of reality.

chan is a sexual person and i think he has become hypersexual bc of how much he disallows himself from doing what he wants. he has become a real deal perverted freak. everything a man does is sexual to him. he wants it so badly but refuses to let himself have it. and he only takes it when he thinks he can erase it. i do see him as someone desperate for touch and when he and jisung fully start meeting regularly, he is extremely magnetized to him and wants anything jisung will give him. and luckily jisung is willing to do anything chan wants. but they ease into it. and jisung makes chan a bottom whore. chan wants to be used and slutted out. just takes a little bit of hanging out w jisung to realize that. i think he really likes being a mans object of desire, bc hes so used to the other way.

im derailing sorry but yeah chans relationship with sex is complicated because he knows he enjoys it and wants and hes so dissatisfied with it in his life because hes sleeping with women instead of men. he sexualizes normal things because he has ruined his brain with porn, obsessesion, and repression. hes unhealthy with his sexualization, his porn consumption, his masturbation habits, his fantasies. bc i am me and i Love Love blah bkahsbsl i did see him having a relationship with jisung over time changes him and as feelings develop and a real relationship starts forming chan changes for the better and ends up viewing sex and men and relationships in a very good way. and his relationship with jisung is appropriate, equal, they respect each other, etc. bc i need romance or i CANTTTT do it. idc how unrealistic it is. 😭

re: chans confidence. i wrote chan being confident despite his sexual inexperience with men and his sexual repression bc i think that chan, as a character, had confidence. hes established in his career, he has money, he has connections, and he doesnt want to be seen as weak. so he will act tough and put on a front, all to keep the ruse up and the mask on.