hey heres this pls no criticism haha.. (i just submitted this on retrospring too are you just lurking both sites for a quick response? boo.) https://docs.google.com/document/d/1BweKnVE5u7t98SBusQ83Z6f8wKqqrLOVAs0-vrIqdzo/edit?usp=sharing

guys my drawing sucks every time i look at it i shed a tear https://file.garden/Zy0UzdYrsSNPYizw/1000000496.jpg

GIGGLES LAUGHS SMILES CHEERS DANCES YIPPEEEEEEE YAY YAY YAYAYYAYAYAY

I FINISHED MY IVANTILL SKETCH FOR MY PAINTING IM SO EXCITED TO GET A CANVAS AND START IT AHDHHSFUJHWFWIEBHKFFWKL SO EXCITED ITS SO UGLY BUT I TRIED MY BESTEST SO IM KINDA PROUD

guys guys guys please give me a sad art prompt for my painting of ivan for my art project smiles sweetly and teehees

heyyyyyy noms car

wanting me dead just bc i like writing sad boys is uncalled for though pookie bear sorry not sorry chat. angst fanfiction exists for a reason, people obviously enjoy it. "that did not make me happy" you really dont have to read it. hope this makes you feel better oomf, if not just like click offline and get it together. its fictional.

im gonna piss myself nobody said till is dead thats why i said give it time bro give it time, let me cook

IM CRYING HELP DEATH THREATS IS WILD PLEASE DONT AHHHH 😭😭YOU DONT KNOW IF ITS BAD ANGST OK?? GIVE IT SOME TIME ITS ONLY THE PROLOGUE BRO

hi guys how we feeling about ivantill angst x2

realsies (luka defender and apologist even if he did have a choice because hes so pookie sorry guys)

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG THANK YOU

THANK YOU, YOURS TOOOO i. "Muse" by Isabel Larosa (old take but I haven't listened to anything but the ALNST OST lately, didn't wanna say one of those AGAIN heh..) vii. Dogs have a sixth sense for oncoming seizures, and can be trained to detect illnesses like cancer.

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here's what i wrote so far heh...

Devastating and heartbreaking and life-changing, but prepare yourself for an absolute essay on one of many particular focal points I've been obsessing over. When I first watched ALNST (I've watched it three times today back to back), the scene of Ivan singing and reaching out his hand struck me as odd, especially since ALNST takes every single frame extremely seriously to an insane degree (i.e. Luka circling Mizi like a snake would do to its prey, Sua visibly sweating and being more tired than Mizi when they tried to reach a tie in the first round, Till's wires and restraints being removed after round five because he was too emotionally destroyed to rebel and be "disobedient," etc.) So, the hand movements. Why? They could have just been him pointing to Till, his "black sorrow." But no, it's deeper than that. He isn't even pointing at Till with that move. There are three hand gestures made that piqued my interest the most. 1, a strange side angle move. This one was meant for Till. It's a weird stroking movement done to the air in front of him, the same way he'd grabbed Till's neck so many times before.. and after. 2, the second gesture where his palm was out. It's similar to the flashback in round six, the moment Till had let go of his hand when they were running away. The flashback of this scene in round three showed it from a side angle, but in round six the moment Till let go was shown from Ivan's perspective.

mean

IM NOT IM WRITING AN ENTIREEE ESSAY PLEASE BE PATIENT I BEG ITS VERY LONG

panicking rn for a particular reason i wont publicly say 🥰🥰

in round 7 they went full-on dead wife montage with ivan on us just in case we could still feel even a tiny teensy drop of happiness and hope. like it completely destroyed till and luka did NOT help with him imitating ivan's mannerisms and shit. till clearly loved ivan and the dead wife montage WAS NOT NECESSARY TO MAKE IT CLEAR. WE GET IT OK. IVAN PLEASE COME BACK.

i. "udnthave2know pt 2" by marluxiam ii. "to sleep in a sea of stars" by christopher paolini. i talk abt this book a lot because i'm obsessed with it. v. "you" (yes the netflix show. made me cringe a lot but i like the thriller and psychological aspects the most.) vii. did you know that dogs eat your corpse when you die? i think its interesting to imagine a dog doesn't see us as human owner, but as food that's slowly dying as it awaits its dinner.

A lot, but they're usually the same things over and over. I like to read it once, read again to see if I missed details, then read again to possibly highlight or take notes on characters, then read another 500 times if I like the book enough.

STPTOPOTOPTPOTP AHHHHHHH

THANK YOU

I SAID I WOULD GOODBYE

i confessed to having nightmares about random discord women getting me pregnant because they tell me to my face "i'm going to get you pregnant" and expect me to just.. walk it off. like BRO WHAT? now everybody wants me pregnant i guess sigh.