Confession / kinda vent : I HATE having DID I wish I didn't have it, it affects my relationships with my friends SM like yesterday I had a trip with my college and when we got back to the college one of my friends was asking my other friends if they could give them head scratches and they all said no and after ten minutes they asked me but were really hesitant because they thought I'd get mad?? I never get mad and apparently all throughout the trip I kept snapping at them and told them to die when they tried to talk to me so they thought I hated them but that's so not true I love them and would let them touch me if they wanted but that specific alter really hates touch so to my friends it's like they're walking on eggshells BC they don't know if I'm going to scream at them, be fine or overly touchy due to all the alters in my system :cc it makes me feel really bad and I also get so frustrated that I missed out on the trip and time with my friends BC of this stupid disorder that I developed because people are mean. My mum always says to let go of the past but I can't because what they did left me with a disorder that will NEVER go away and ruins every relationship I have and affects my daily life. And I wouldn't have to go through this if people weren't so cruel and abusive. I could've been able to experience life normally but no. I'll never forgive them they took away my life and normality simply because I was different than them. - 🍒

P.s. DIDN'T MEAN TO VENT SO MUCH BUT 😭😭