i just don’t care about those things at all. it’s not that i prefer rare dynamics, or that i like controversial things. that’s not what makes it difficult. the problem is i’m writing for a community that cares deeply about these things when i don’t have any personal investment in it.

if i had to think about it and give an answer, i’d say the part of writing i enjoy is exploring complicated relationships. that means writing problematic characters and writing uncomfortable or taboo sex. dynamics are an afterthought to that. it’s a bit crazy that i can write a fic like prey and have hundreds of hours of work and character development reduced to “jungkook bottomed”. jungkook bottoming is the least interesting thing about that fic. don’t give it too much thought. nothing about it is arousing to write and i’m not sitting behind the scenes getting freaky with a glass of wine over my own writing. if i wanted porn i’d pull up videos of lesbians scissoring. if people wanted they could ctrl+f the fic and swap...