i dont really think abt chya angst much cause i prefer keeping them as my comfort ship but cough cough inhales deeply time to ramble

i guess an old idea i had is abt childe choosing to stay loyal to the tsaritsa over kaeya. kae begging childe to stop going to missions that puts his life in danger. at one point he pushes childe away, leaving first to avoid getting hurt. cause if one day he's just going to lose someone he loves again, he'd rather not open up his heart anymore.

with childe, i like thinking that he'd feel really conflicted. he has already sworn complete loyalty to tsaritsa, a decision he was so sure of doing. though now kaeya came into his life, and then that decision is starting to be the reason he loses the person he loves. he doesn't really know what to do.

so bc of it they break up maybe. kaeya's alcohol addiction gets worse, childe starts going on a killing spree and gets more impulsive. they both lost the only person that they felt ever loved them unconditionally yada yada

i cannot handle it if childe dies in one of his battles and kae is left abandoned all over again AJAX IS NOT ALLOWED TO DIE !!!