thank you for letting me know! it helps to know that it's not all the same person. everyone being anonymous on here makes it difficult to gauge intention bc i don't have a username i can look at and be like "oh hey, i recognize this person (from ao3, twt, etc) and have had other good interactions with them!" so it makes it kind of like everyone is a stranger, even if they're not. ultimately, i'm just kind of sensitive right now. i feel bad in general, and i also feel bad that i haven't been writing, and i am also always sensitive talking about other wips because i'm very aware that not as many people care about them or read them as do takedown. (i'm also very sensitive about how good it felt in particular, it's a very personal fic for me.) so getting asked about takedown right after i've talked about them feels to me like people confirming "hey, i know you care about this thing, but i wanna remind you that i don't care about it, so maybe you could stick to talking to the thing i care about!" i know that doesn't mean that's how it is, but it's how it feels in my little animal brain!!

ultimately, i don't blame anyone for that!! there are very few authors where i read every fic of theirs, so i really get that most people will only be interested in one thing i write, or a few things. that's normal, and it's a natural way to engage with someone's writing! i do genuinely appreciate that you love takedown and that you look forward to reading more of it, i mean that SO much 💗 i love that fic, i work hard on it, and it's really special to me, and so is everyone who reads it. (thank you for commenting on ao3 btw, you're my hero for that!)

as a rule, i try to assume good intentions from people, because i know that it really sucks to like, try to engage with someone whose fic you like and have them respond by snapping at you or being hurt! i want people to feel good when they interact with me, and not like they're potentially stepping on a land mine, y'know? but there are some things i get sensitive about, and some times i'm more sensitive than others, and my feelings get hurt! thank you for clarifying, like it genuinely does help to know that you weren't trying to be pushy and that it's not all the same person! but it also doesn't really make my feelings less hurt, if that makes sense. which is a me problem, tbh! there's nothing you need to do to fix that for me 💕 it comes from my vulnerabilities and my fears, and those are things i only expect people close to me to know and anticipate. i think i do need to just stop responding to messages that make me feel sensitive in that particular way! because i don't like getting all emo in neospring messages lol and, more importantly, i don't like responding poorly and discouraging people from talking to me. (also, i need to stop responding to anon messages when i'm sleep deprived and emotional lmaooo...) anyway, the tl;dr of it all is: this particular reaction is not about you, it's about me! so i really don't have any hard feelings toward you. 🫂

context for those who need it: the message anon sent months ago (i think this is the one you were talking about!) the recent message me getting a little sdfjksdfj on twt